Welcome 2015!

Yes, this is a new year to go deeper in the Lord. If there is one thing I would want this 2015, is that I won't be the same as last year.

I want to know the Lord more, love Him more, serve Him more and love Him more. In 2014, that's when I realized who truly God is. His power, His awesomeness and His great love for me. Truly, if we don't realize who God is, we will never be satisfied in Him, we will always look for something more. Not realizing that we already have everything in Him. 

2014 is one of the best year of my life, just like 2013, and I am just so excited of what God has for me this 2015. 

Baguio 2014

2014 is the year when I learned how to really love God, how to radically love Him and also the people He has placed in my life. I am pretty sure I am not a lukewarm Christian, but I am really His child. Once my life here on earth ends, I will worship Him together with the angels and the saints in heaven. This is what I look forward in this life. Nothing is better than to be with my Creator. But while I live my short life here on earth, I will do what the Lord has designed for me to do. 

I pray that this 2015, I will grow more deeply in love with Him and more  content in Him. That through my life, the love of God will be seen and with that, He will be glorified. 

Thank you Lord for the past year and let's be together again this 2015!

Count your blessings, name them one by one...

A day of relaxation sa Laguna. Though hindi kami natuloy sa Canyon Cove, napakaganda pa din ng lugar na pinuntahan namin. A day of fellowship with my friends and church mates. 

Masaya, ang sarap ng Jacuzzi. Walking sa resort, ang ganda ng landscape. Nagpakain kami ng isda ni Inday, may volleyball pa. Kaya lang nabangasan ang legs ko. 

Truly to have Godly friends is a blessing. When I look back at my life, yung mga dati kong friends, there's so much difference. Di naman regret na naging kaibigan ko sila. I just saw how different you bond with Christians and non Christians friends. 

Thankful din ako sa tao na ginamit ng Lord to treat us na mga workers ng church. There's a bit of guilt feeling kapag naiisip ko how much was spent on that day na we could have shared to the outreaches who have less than us. 

Pero sabi nung nag share nung gabi, we are worth it. It is their way of appreciating us for all the work for the Kingdom of God. Masarap din naman talaga ang marefresh paminsan minsan. This day, I appreciate God more. Just to see the beauty of His creation, joy of being with fellow believers, I felt once again how much the Lord loves me. 

I can't imagine my life not living for Him. Though masaya ako sa mga companions ko ngayon, sa work at personal life ko, pero just thinking na wala ang Panginoon sa lahat ng yun, nakakalungkot at nakakatakot. 

Maigsi lang buhay dito sa mundo, madami nag sasabi nyan. At madami rin ang nagsasabi na "just enjoy life". Napaka shallow how they view life. If you are not living your life according to the will of your Creator, then everything is in vain. There will never be a satisfied life here on earth. 

I am just thankful Lord that I have a life that is meaningful and has purpose. I will love you forever, more than anything or anyone else. 

Wide Awake

Sa susunod, wag iinom ng kape kapag malapit ng matulog. Anong oras na? Alas dos na gising na gising pa ang diwa ko at eto nga nakakapag blog pa. Pisting kape yan haha!

Anyway, let me take this as opportunity to make this season of my life remembered by putting it to writing...

Oh well, yes I am! Crazy inLove indeed. This is a season of my life that I do not want to change. I thank God for all the Bible reading, podcast and preaching that He gave for me to know Him deeper. 

With my years of existence as a Christian, I never viewed God as how I see Him now. I will not deny that Francis Chan has influenced me so much on this, and that is something I am so thankful. Fan man akong matatawag, God used him for me to radically love Him. 

So sobrang kabaliwan ko, I am looking forward on when He will take my life. Ngayon, di ko maintindihan kung bakit may mga Christians na parang ayaw pang mamatay. Sabi nga ni Paul, to be with Christ is far better. True! What does the world have to offer that is better than Christ? Nothing! And yes, I understand that Paul also said that to be in the flesh is also beneficial for him to continue sharing the Gospel. Kung madeds ako ng maaga, maybe this year or this week, isa lang siguro ang ikakalungkot ko. Yun ay ang mamatay ako na hindi pa nakakilala sa Panginoon ang Tatay at Kuya ko. Madalas, iniisip ko na lang na may iba pa namang tao na gagamitin ang Lord para sila ay maligtas. Andyan naman sina Haidee at AC na maaaring humawak sa Childrens. O masyado akong selfish na dahil ayoko na makita ang corrupt na mundo na ito kaya gusto ko ng pumunta ng langit? Half true. 

Though kahit ganito ako ngayon, masaya pa din naman ako sa buhay ko dito sa lupa. Masaya naman sa mga companion ko. I had group of friends before that I can never compare as well. Pero ngayon, mas deep ang bagong group. Nakakabless kase as we enjoy our fellowship, we also bring one another closer to God. Hindi lang kami tumatanda, lumalalim din kami sa pagkakilala namin sa Panginoon. Maniwala ka bang ngayon eh boring ang hapon after lunch kapag walang Bible reading? Haha!

Ilang weeks na lang madadagdagan na naman ang edad ko. Ito na ang preferred age ko to get married. Ewan ko lang kung mangyayari na nga. Lagi ko kase naiisip pede na nga ako kunin ni Lord anytime diba, so isipin ko pa ba yun? Hahaha!

Pero kung may isang Francis Chan akong makikilala, ay kasal agad! Hehe. Gitarista at nagtuturo ng bata lang naman talaga ang additional preference ko eh. Pero if I can find someone who is as "crazy inlove" as me sa Lord, what else can I ask for? I believe that will complete a man na gusto ko makasama habang buhay. Who sees God as I see Him and who will also serve God as I serve Him. 

Pero sana, bago magkahatiran sa altar ay isa na akong ganap na titser :)))

Blessed Sunday :))

Indeed today is a blessed day! 

Kasama ko mag church today ang dalawa sa close friends ko sa office, si Cams at Cheenee. C3 kami today hahaha! Nakakatuwa naman talaga that the Word of the Lord is being heard by your friends and I know that His Words will never return empty. 

Bukas work na ulit :( Kung pede lang sanang wag matapos ang araw na to at magworship at makinig na lang ng Word, hay ang sarap nun! Nakakabless din ang response ni Cams. After 3 Sundays of attending church, there has been change in her mindset. Nakakabless! Wala talagang lugar na dapat piliin to share the Good News :)

Kahit madaming bagay ngayon ang nangyayari sa church na nakakalungkot, go pa din tayo! I know this is part of testing sa church and how God's children will respond sa mga pangyayari. Last week, na stress talaga ako sa mga balita. Kaya nga maganda na wala ka na lang alam para your mind is at peace and you'll just focus sa pinapagawa ng Lord. Pero okay din naman na hindi ka maging mangmang sa tunay na nangyayari. Lord, please help me not to be judgmental. Everyone has their own flaws and weaknesses. I pray that we will rebuke one another in love and not in hatred. 

Naiinis ako sa sarili ko, magkakacrush pa ako sa frog prince pa. Hmm..kaya nga ayaw ko ng mga crush crush na yan eh, nawawala ako sa focus hahahaha! Kahit pampakilig ayaw ko na!

I love this day :) Ang gaganda ng mga messages. Quota ako today, 3 preachings in a day. 

Can't wait for next Sunday!

Year of Testing

2013 was definitely year of blessings. Ganun pa din naman ang year na to, full of blessings naman everyday.

Last blog ko, I wrote na I have been tested nung na mild stroke si Tatay. I thought it was the end of it. Balik na sa usual na ginagawa... work, rest, church, ministry and family time. Hindi pa pala. 

First week of Feb, inatake na naman ako ng sakit ng tiyan. So nag pacheck up na ako sa Gastroentorologist. That's when I found out na may gallstone pala ako kaya laging sumasakit ang tiyan ko. Ang solusyon? Operasyon. Hindi ko pa to ginawa dahil natatakot ako. So I did yung 3 days detox na nakapag paalis ng gallstone nina Sir Chris. Kaya lang, after ko sya gawin, para pa din akong bloated, masakit pa din ang tiyan ko. In just 2 weeks, 5 kilos na ang nawala sakin. 

Hindi pa din nawawala ang hilo ko. Ang daming nararamdaman, ang daming di pedeng kainin. Minsan wala na lang akong maiisip kase alam ko naman malalampasan ko din to. Kapag naiisip ko si Ptr. Clave at Ate Lorie (na kinuha na din ni Lord), anong icocomplain ko? Hanggang ngayon naman humihinga pa ako, nakakapag serve pa din. Isang detox pa, mawawala na to, papayat pa ako hehe.

So last Feb 25th, nag entrance exam na ako sa PNU. Kabado much talaga, wala akong idea sa format ng exam. Nung exam na, I was relieved na usual entrance exam lang sya. Kaya lang, time pressure kaya mahigit 30 items ang hinulaan ko nung kinuha na ang questionnaire. Hay Lord, alam Nyo na po ang prayer ko :))

2 weeks ng madaming OT, kase stay in sa work haha! Nag away kase kami ni mudra last2 week kaya hiwalay muna kami. 

Though this year is a year of testing my faith, I am still looking forward how the Lord will change me. I know after this year, I will never be the same again. 

Ay naalala ko, may frog crush pala ako :)) Arte lang!

Parang kelan lang, kasama pa namin si Kuya Nestor. Nakakalungkot na just after few months of fighting cancer, kinuha na sya ni Lord. Medyo nainggit ako sa kanya, kase makakasama na nya si Lord. Wala ng pain na mararanasan, worship na lang sya sa Heaven. Pero di ko pa naman gusto madeds ng ganito kabata, alam ko dadating din ako sa time nay yun pero sa ngayon alam ko na madami pang gustong ipagawa ang Lord. 

So last year, nung magkasakit si Ptr. Clave at Kuya Nestor, one of my ultimate prayer is kapag dumating sa buhay ko ang ganung pangyayari is I'll be strong in my faith and I will trust Him no matter what. It never came into my mind na agad agad akong itetest ng Lord. Just a week after New Year, na mild stroke si Tatay dahil sa pagkakabagok nya nung 1st. Masakit makita na yung taong mahal mo ay in pain at wala kang magawa para mawala yung sakit na nararamdaman nya. Minsan sa prayer ko, wala na akong masabi dahil nasabi ko na lahat sa Lord and nararamdaman ko. Pleading for healing, asking why at praying that I won't let go. I thank the Lord and the people who prayed for me and my father, our two weeks battle has finally ended. Getting better na and pudra ko, masungit na ulit haha. 

Faithful talaga ang Lord, kahit na unfaithful tayo. 

I just want to remember this part of my life. It proves that the Lord hears and He is always sovereign. Kahit di nasagot ang tanong ko kung bakit kinuha nya agad si Kuya Nestor, I still trust His perfect plan sa buhay ko at sa buhay ng mga taong importante sakin.