busy busy busy….

February 5, 2010 free2shout copied from Friendster

Busy… sobra, kung kelang nandito na ko sa Tagaytay…mas malapit sa church. Sabi ko mas may time na ko sa Bible reading dahil meron ako ng lahat ng kelangan ko sa pagbabasa. Mas focused sa ministry dahil anytime pwede ka kumilos dahil nga malapit ka lang. Pero, easier said than done. Devotion na lang ang nagagawa ko, hindi pa araw araw. I feel so guilty na parang hindi si Lord ang priority ko. Busy sa PinoyPao, sa callcenter, sa fundraising, sa mga pamangkin, childrens at iba pang anik anik. Mon-Fri, work at pinoypao. Saturday, outreach. Sunday, church/ministry. San ang dayoff ko? Gabing gabi na matulog, nag a accounting kapa. Maago gigising kase mamimili sa pamana. Hayss… Di na ko nakakapanood ng CSI Miami, kung kelan kumpleto na DVD ko. Kung pwede lang dagdagan ang oras sa isang araw. Para mas mahaba ang tulog ko. Nakakamiss naman yung 2mos na tambay lang ako sa bahay. Pero kahit papano naman… fulfilling pa din. Kahit wala na kong time para sa sarili ko, basta meron si Lord. Ewan ko ba, siguro ganito na talaga ako. I can’t imagine myself na malayo sa Kanya. Salamat kay Lord, may Bible reading (kahit hindi updated) alam ko naman kahit papano, binago ako nito. Hindi lang ako, madami samin. Its up to us on how we will react. Tanggap ko na din na hindi everytime, buo ang tropa. We already have different paths to take. Hindi kagaya dati na halos kumpleto kapag Sunday, lahat ng bonding kumpleto, lahat ng birthday celebration at event sa church. Ganyan talaga, hindi naman tayo pumupunta sa church at nagiging part ng isang ministry dahil sa tao eh, syempre, lagi dapat dahil kay Lord. The joy of serving must not be found through the people that you are with but it must be from God. Kaya may joy kase your serving Him. Dagdag saya lang yung kasama mo ang friends mo.

Bagong career… Tinggin ko, sa pagtitinda ako magiging successful, laging mabili ang mga tinda ko eh. Haha! Eh di mainam. Every Sunday, iba iba ang bitbit kong tinda sa church.

Masaya naman ako sa ngayon, mas mabuti ng ang may ginagawa kesa sa wala diba?

“Those who wait on the Lord
Shall renew their strength”

- Wings Like Eagles ; Don Moen

God’s Grace and Mercy

October 12, 2009 free2shout copied from Friendster

“He never runs out”, that’s what I can say. The Lord is abundant in mercy, grace and forgiveness. Hard to explain, I can just feel my self crying every time I’ll think about it. A very heart breaking story. Thank you Lord! You already know why. But still, I’m preparing my heart, praying that I will stand still. Preparing my self as well to be emptied again, “The seed I received I will sow”

I’m not afraid, I know where ever I am, the Lord will still bless me. What ever I have, its enough and still will sustain all my needs. It’s final. 13month and PA! Looking forward to both of you… ^_^

I’ve already decided to resign, so excited! If I could just pull the days, I will really do it. Transfer work, start my own business, give more time in Ministry, join worship team again, learn to play guitar and most specially… spend time with my family.

I’m not thinking of my lost regarding the salary, it could be half difference of what I am earning right now. But just like what I said, the Lord will still bless me where ever I am.

Still happy have to serve the Lord, still crazy in love with Him…

Facebook Addict ^_^

September 16, 2009 free2shout copied from Friendster

Yeah right, got addicted to this very interactive “friends networking”. Got addicted with Farmville, pangarap magtanin eh! Ultimo damo di ko nga mabuhay sa true life, dito na lang matutupad pangarap ko. haha! Yun lang, Kim is now transferring to DOC, back to each others arms, hehe. Girl, wag ka pasaway, nilakad kitang mabuti, galingan mo ha? hehe. Hay, 6K to go, may digicam na ko. Kaso avail this week, konti sales, daming entitled at declined, but still hoping…praying… I know will give that Olympus to me, Beth and Tina na tatak nun eh, hehe. There, need to get some sleep now, nakapagtanim na eh. Babush!

I want him dead first ^_^

September 7, 2009 free2shout copied from Friendster

I watched UP last week and also yesterday. You know what breaks my heart when I’m watching this movie? Its when Ellie died and Carl was left behind. I can’t imagine the pain of Carl when his loving wife passed away. With no child to take care of you. You’ll wake up in the morning without someone by your side. You’ll eat your breakfast alone, and the chair beside you is also empty. You will just stare at the pictures of your unforgetable memories with your wife/husband. Hay…what a sad feeling

It just came to my mind that when I already have a partner, I want him to die first, haha. Morbid? Nope, I just dont want him to experience the pain of loosing someone dear to you. Siguro, I can bear the pain, but for my husband, nope, I dont want him to experience that. I havent met him but I love him already ^_^…

Anyways, yeah, just like what I said in facebook, I’m inlike right now. But still fighting this feeling. Yoko nito, masaya ang may love life but not right now. Obvious ba na iniiwasan ko sya? Haha, di naman masyado, magaling ako dyan eh. Masaya ang dalaga, sobrang free, wag lang magiinarte ang kuya mo, haha! Lam ko naman na love lang nya ko, pero naman! Vente Uno na ako, nag tratrabaho na ko para sa sarili ko at alam ko na ang tama at mali. I can take care of myself already! Enways, I still like it, I can feel that they still care for me and still their bunso ^_^

Next Sunday, Ministry Highlight! Yeah! Dream come true, haha! Lead Vocalist ako, Ikit ang drummer, haidz ang bassist, geline ang guitarist, jam ang keyboardist, beth back up, ehgay, tadami and jason and mag tatambourine, so excited! We will go to Canyon Cave on the 21st, so excited too! Syempre bonding with the “Mongo” … You know naman na isa sila sa nakakapag paligaya sa akin ng lubusan, isama pa ang makukulit din na CORE leaders, sana nga makasama si deybed at ja-mes. sana pati ikaw kuya Stiv, grabe, dami ko na ding namimiss sa tropa, eto na ba talaga ang pag babago? Remember guys, we made a promise, tropa forever, magka bf/gf, asawa at apo man, solid pa din tayo, love you guys.

Ano pa ba? Eto super duper blessed sa work, ikaw na ayaw sa sales, naging high flier? Grabe, galing talaga ni Lord, minsan talagang hindi ko macontain yung greatness Nya at yung faithfulness nya sakin. Alam mo yun, kahit wala naman akong material things na hawak, di ko alam pero feeling ko sobrang content na ko. Wala pa sa kamay ko pero alam kong ibingai na sa akin ni Lord. Hay…been like this for 2 months already and want to be like this forever.

I’m just crazy inlove with Him ^_^

A Mans Heart Plans His Ways, But The Lord Directs His Steps

September 3, 2009 free2shout copied from Friendster

This is hundred percent true. This proves the sovereignty of our Lord. We have bunch of things in our mind and heart. Planned everything for the future, but if not God’s willing, “everything will slip through our folded hands” I’ve learned this alread. Place it in His hands, and you will be at peace. Trust everything to the Lord, you will never regret it. It may not be the way you planned it, nywy, you are not the author of your life! Your just a character. Full surrender, that’s what needs to be done, really hard to do, but you will reap its fruit in due time, be patient, stay strong and just trust Him!^-^

Just can’t contain it…

August 13, 2009 free2shout copied from Friendster

Yes, can’t contain it anymore, it’s an over flowing love and mercy from my Lord. Words are not enough to explain how great and might He is. He is changing me bit by bit by reading His Word… Every chapter, every verse, every word of His is a promise, 7000 promises (according to Geline), I only have few, and they satisfy me already. How much more if I have everything. I’ll go crazy

The Sweetest Feeling Ever :)

August 11, 2009 free2shout copied from Friendster

Falling in love, what else is sweetest than falling in love? And who doesn’t want to fall in love? Its sweet but painful as well, that is the fact that can never be changed. I love this feeling but I don’t want to have it. What I want to fall in love to my Creator, as of now … I’m happy with it, as of now

I don’t want to find him yet, but I think I already have, or I just I thought so? Our hearts are very deceitful. You can never tell when this feeling will go away. Experienced it a lot of time. Whenever I remember my past “feelings” towards “them”, I just can’t stop to smile and say, “ang baduy” , can’t believe that I did and say those things. I am not yet matured to get into a relationship, I know I’m not. But I am in love right now, just like what I said, I am crazy in love with my Creator, and I like it a lot.I don’t want this feeling to go away, I want to have till my last breath. I just can’t stop thinking about my God. How much I love Him and how much he loves me. I am so blessed… I am so loved… and I am so thankful…

I will lay it down to you, all of my hopes, all of my dreams and all of my best laid plans.. I give it all to you…

I love you LORD!

On Fire

July 28, 2009 free2shout copied from Friendster

“On Fire”

They tell you where you need to go
They tell you when you’ll need to leave
They tell you what you need to know
They tell you who you need to be

But everything inside you knows
There’s more than what you’ve heard
There’s so much more than empty conversations
Filled with empty words

And you’re on fire
When He’s near you
You’re on fire
When He speaks
You’re on fire
Burning at these mysteries

Give me one more time around
Give me one more chance to see
Give me everything You are
Give me one more chance to be… (near You)

Cause everything inside me looks like
Everything I hate
You are the hope I have for change
You are the only chance I’ll take

When I’m on fire
When You’re near me
I’m on fire
When You speak
And I’m on fire
Burning at these mysteries
These mysteries…

I’m standing on the edge of me [x3]
I’m standing on the edge of everything I’ve never been before.
And i’ve been standing on the edge of me
Standing on the edge

And I’m on fire
When You’re near me
I’m on fire
When You speak
(Yea) I’m on fire
Burning at these mysteries… these mysteries… these mysteries
Ah you’re the mystery
You’re the mystery

...Yes, I’m on fire, and I love it. Just like the first few months after I accepted Jesus Christ as my King and personal Savior. Again, another answered prayer. I was praying that I would be like before, always hungry to the Word, always wanted to read my devotion and the Bible. I love this feeling, I feel like I really love the Lord, which I really do. I am so thankful that we are now having the chronological reading of the Bible. There are so many names, ages and places in the Bible, but with God’s help, I was able to retain them in my mind. I am so thankful that I was able to know my God deeper. That I was able to see how merciful He is and how faithful He is with His promises. Once again, I would like to say that I do not have any regret that I became a Christian. I love the Lord ☺

Dell on Call

July 15, 2009 free2shout copied from Friendster

Welcome to Dell on Call… hay, until now still can’t believe that I am here at the 21st floor having training for Dell on Call. I really don’t want to be here. I get irate first before the customers do, haha, where is the fruit of the Spirit which is being patient tina? Setting that aside, I am not a sales person as well, I do not force people to get something specially if money is involve. I still can’t say that its God’s sign to me to resign and apply in Teletech. I’ve been praying about this if I will go home in Tagaytay already and get a job near Tagaytay. Before I knew that I will be transferred to DOC, I was praying early that day that “if ever” I will be stank rank for DOC or be transferred to XPS, that is GOd’s sign for me to resign. Would you belive that same night I was stank ranked to DOC. I am still confirming that sign, I also don’t want the people in CBG that I was imature that just because I was transferred I will resign. This is going to be the 3rd day of our training, and still not enjoying it. I miss my friends from Team Tin Po… I will try it here, I know that if its God’s plan for me to be here, He will give me the ability to perform my Job well…

Change topic, last June I attented True Love Wait, I said I don’t need that because I already have a covenant with God regarding that matter. Truly satan is always busy working. I never thought that I would feel that way towards him. I cant tell “it” to either of my friends in IHPCC. I am really fighting this feeling right now, because I don’t want to completely fall for him and then eventually get hurt, because I know its not the right time. I always pray to the Lord to remove that feeling. I want us to remain friends and treat him the same way as before. Carry naman, I know that God is helping me with that matter. Okay, enough of him…

Another topic, we are now having our Chronological Study of the Bible. Very exciting and fruitful as well, I was able to know my God more. How powerful and kind He is and how much he loves me. I’m excited to finish the Bible reading next year. I can say that its was my first time to spend time reading the Bible for 2-3 hours. I am excited to see the GANG leaders to be more equiped with the Word of God…

Okay, lunch time is over, still has lots of things to say, but let me continue next time ☺

FLU

June 16, 2009 free2shout copied from Friendster

Influenza A (H1N1) also A.K.A Swine Flu. Ang daming tawag eh lagnat lang naman. Grabe ang balita, akalain mong more than a hundred na namantay sa lagnat na yan. Minsan kapag napapanood ko ang bilang ng infected sa news, iniisip ko na malapit ng magrapture. Handa na ba ako? Feeling ko hindi pa, syempre confident ako na masasama ko. Pero hindi ko pa gustong mawala. Gusto ko pang magturo ng mga bata, mag lead ng youth kay Lord. May plan pa ko mag full time at higit sa lahat, di pa Christian ang family ko. Nawala na yung issue tungkol kay Katrina at Hayden. Magaling na si Richard from accident. Nakita na ang nawawalang kapatid ni Rochelle Barameda after 2 long years. Ipinaglalaban na wag matuloy ang Con Ass. Nagtataka ako bakit ang daming nanonood ng Boys Over Flower, eh pangatlong version na yun ng kwento ng F4. I must admit, maganda na Tayong Dalawa kahit di ako nanonood at di ako fanatic ng Gerald/Kim love team. And laki ng mata ni Santino pero ang ganda. Yung 1 liter of tears maganda daw, maganda ba yun, parang Endless Love lang yan, araw araw ka iiyak at pasasakitin ang puso mo. Kamukha ni Marian yung bida sa Rosalinda. Tapos tingin ko si Sheena Halili yung Jesse sa Full House (Pinoy Version) eh. Di ko napapanood ang Adik Sayo [pang gabi kase ako eh]. Paborit ko pa naman si Jolina, nakakalungkot talaga. Ang galing kumanta ni Charice, ang lupet! Pero lumalaki daw ang ulo nya. Patay na din si Dauglas Quijano, akalain mo no? Daming nangyayari sa mundo. Pero mas paborit ko na si Miranda Cosgrove, di ko alam kung bakit gustong gusto ko ang batang yun. Ako lang ata ang 21 year old fan nun. Eh kung ang artista kaya ako? Naging Sexy Star kaya ako? May Scandal din kaya ako? haha! buhay…

yey! last na to! ang pagtitiis...

carry lang naman eh, wag lang talaga akong pupunahin

anyway, i am not looking for the praises of man, lalo ng kung galing sa kany

okay lang naman din na magsama kami, kaya ko naman

pero syempre mas maganda kung maghiwalay na kami

pero kung sa kanya matutupad ang prayer ko, ay naku, kaya kong magtiis 4ever! haha

at alam kong kung matuloy to, answered prayer na ko

kase kapag nagtagal pa, ay naku, mapapariwara na talaga ako

minsan nga lang mangyari sakin, over naman, hmf! pasaway!

kaya nga po Lord diba, kung hindi naman for the bright and better future...

eh wag na lang, sanay naman ako, and I can twist it :)

basta para Sayo, mas mahal kita eh...

i will no longer reduce Your standards so they will fit mine...

i love and fear You... You are more than enough for me!

at tong alien nato, pasaway talaga...

di ko maintindihan ugali nitong batang to, parang masaya na may bumabagsak

ay naku, wag lang sya ang bumagsak, wala syang katulong na maglilift up sa kanya

wala pa naman syang friends...

di ba nila nakikita ang tunay nyang kulay...

proven, magaling lang sa harap nila, pero plastic

di kita kayang isama sa circle of friends ko, di ka belong

wala ka kasing kaparis... kawawa naman ang kaibigan ko at nakilala ka

masakit man sabihin to, pero yun ang totoo

nagkalamat man ang friendship namin, it doesnt mean that we are no longer friends

ikaw talaga, hindi ka namin friends, sabit ka lang naman eh

tama bang yung pagkakamali ng iba eh i tsimis mo pa

you're the one who doesnt know the meaning of ethics...

you are speaking for yourself!

anyway... masyado ng maraming linya ang naibuhos ko sayo

excited na ko magturo ulit ng mga bata

i know, this feb, makakapagturo ako :)

at makakasama ko na din sina nanay magsimba

things will never be the same again

sa youth... ayus lang

di na naman ako youth eh

focus na lang sa childrens

excited na ko mag star city sa wednesday

Lord... for the last last time, pwede ba? :)

too much effort

kaanis ako, sobrang effort na ko ha... nakakapraning na talaga, takbo ng takbo sa isip ko

ewan ko ba, marinig ko lang natutuwa na ko, naiinis ako kapag nahahati ang atensyon, hayy... just like before

namimiss ko na ang church, miss ko na childrens sobra. kahit na nakakapag church ako, I still feel that something is missing. new year, but i dont have any goal sa spiritual life ko.

my life doesnt feel complete when I dont do something for You...

Lord... please give me a sunday off... miss ko na sila... draw me closer to You...

in like...

ayan...kakatapos ko lang maglinis ng kwarto ko (na naman), nagtapon ng mga papel sa ilalim ng kutson at mga damit.

parang max payne lang, kainis. ganitong ganito ako last summer. kaninang kanina pa ko tingin ng tingin kung online na, update kung may bagong post.

ay ang higit sa lahat... excited ako bukas. so unusual... ako na ayaw umalis ng bahay.

ikaw na ang in like... sabi ko kina nanay this year mag kaka bf na ko. haha! eto na naman...

napapraning ulit... i hate this season of my life!

new season....

Yup! That's right! New season, new year, new work, new environment, new friends and new inspiration, haha! Has a new job now, back to call center industry, but this time there's difference. Unlike before na tinatamad at laging kabadong magcalls, ngayon hindi na. Has new friends too kaso di ako nakakapag ministry. Nakakalungkot...namimiss ko na childrens ministry, miss ko na magturo, miss ko na sunday school at outreach. Kaya ayun, pray lang... I know that God will give me favor sa schedule. For now, I'm learning how important they are to me. Ang youth, di ko masyadong miss, di na kase ako belong, haha

Ansaya kagabi, kasama ko mga friends ko. Kahit may mga nawala, ayus lang naman, masaya pa din naman kami, kay James at David pa lang, solved na. Nanjan pa naman ang girls. Nahaluan ba naman ng alien, kaya ayun, sumegwey. Anyways, I dont care.

Saya din today, bonding with family, bday ni nanay. Tambay at kainan sa picnic groove, horseback riding at potato tripping sa summit ridge. Masaya ako sa greatest gift na natanggap ni nanay, salvation of her soul ^_^

At syempre, may bagong inspiration. Kaya laging excited eh. Haha! Kaso sablay, anyway... kung hindi naman kalooban ni Lord alam ko naman walang mangyayari. Parang si Max Payne lang to.

So tired today, but worth it... Enjoy ako!