When things don't happen the way you wanted to be...

How will you react if nothing you want happens? Everything fails and all your plans are not coming to life. You'll feel like you are being betrayed or something. As if you want to cry your lungs out. And just cry, literally.

But well, that might happen to others but not to me.

Yeah, all my plans are failing right now and I don't know why. I was really hoping for 3 months now to be transferred to this Australian account so I can have weekends off and consistently attend church and teach in Sunday School.

And it did happen just last week, I passed the new accounts examination and interview and signed a new contract for this Australian company. I'll be on training a week after that. I was so very happy and ofcourse, as Christians, we will think that this is another answered prayer from the Lord.

But just yesterday, I found out that our batch of new trainees is on hold and there is no definite date of training. HR told me that I can no longer return to my former department as they are also trimming down their people, the reason they approved my transfer. So right now I'm a floating employee, meaning no work, no salary, though still part of the company. My friend in HR department gave me two options; they can either look for a new account in a different site or I can just leave the company and give me a separation pay. So I am jobless right now! Whoah! How's that my friend?

I've been thinking...why? I just wanted to be transferred for a very good reason, I didn't wish to be terminated. I wanted to stay longer in that company. So, since I'm a floating employee right now, I need to think of a new plan. As I also have financial responsibilities for my family. I'll be looking for a new job as soon as my mom gets released from hospital confinement (she's feeling okay now, nothing serious though).

Its just funny and also awesome how we, Christians react on things that happen to our lives. When good things happen, it's Gods gift to us. Then if things are bad, God has a better plan for us. "Maybe its not meant for me, He prepared something better", that's our thought.

Yeah, that's what I have on my mind right now, the Lord has prepared something better for me, maybe not the Australian account that my heart desires. And I know, greater things are yet to come. I may have my own plans right now but it's still the Lord who's gonna direct my steps (Proverbs 16:9). And I trust my sovereign Lord...

You should too. Just keep your faith alive :)

goodbye "tamad mode"

Simula nung nag ka sore eyes ako nung October, tamad mode na talaga ako. Biruin mo, twice or once a week lang ako pumapasok sa work, as in nasa bahay lang talaga ako. Di naman ako gumagala. Ngayon mejo naiintindihan ko na ang mga tambay, masarap din pala talaga ang walang ginagawa. Tapos may pagkain sa bahay, lagi ka pang online. Series at movie marathon ang mode ng lola mo.

Kaya eto, dahil wala naman pinagkakabisihan, alaga mode din ako kay Lei. Kaso uuwi na daw sa mendez bukas eh. Hay... mamimiss ko ng sobra sobra sobra si lei. As in, sobra.

Pero tong week na din na to matatapos ang tamad mode ko. Sa monday, Iwill be taking a new path in my life. New account, new training, new people, new things to learn. Masaya naman ako na Sat-Sun off na ang off ko. Makakapag church na ako lagi sa IHP. Makakapagturo sa childrens at makakaattend ng strengthening class.

I know this 2012, I will be learning and experiencing new things. Goodbye stagnant life na din. I know the Lord has prepared something awesome for me this year, and I'm just so excited.

May mga prayers man ng 2011 ang hindi natugon, alam ko din na may ibang plano para sakin ang Panginoon. I am just keeping my faith alive...